Thank You Ronak

I was skeptical whether I was once again letting my paranoid side takeover me. I lay asleep on the bed only to fool the Gods of Good Night. It was 1.00 am in my watch at this side of the world. He told me he'll reach safely onto the other end by 12.30 midnight, Friday the 20th of July,07. He had'nt. I thought maybe the clearance was taking more time than required.I had one shot nap before i was woken awake by my fears. I had to be at work by 8. For the first time i wished the night would pass by fast.



At about 6.30 when i could'nt take no more, I picked up my phone to message him. It remained undelivered. I called him right thereafter. Airtel disappointed me once again. How helpless i felt. Now i know how feels to be totally handicapped,where you are totally unaware of the situation and so unable to do much. By now it was 7.00 am. My paranoid side had completely taken over me and i picked up the phone and messaged Ronak Shah. The exact msg ll not be displayed here coz those who still feel i am a strong person i wud like them to be wid the same perception.



But i guess after witnessing two such attacks earlier Ronak remaind undeterred. I was not at the last stage. At about 8.30 am I lost all the grace and called Ronak up. He was kind enuf to pick up my call. I straight came to the point after a few exchange of pleasent words. I think my sentences were totally disconnected. I told him to please call up Appa n find out if Anush had reached. A few minuteslater my phone rang. Like i expected it was Ronak. He told me that he had reached and that he must b asleep due to the jet lag..

Now here comes the greatness of a true friend.. And thats y i always envy Anush's frnds. Ronak had absolutely no business going to all this trouble. On a friday morning jus before he had to get to work. That too a calol from work I presume. Neither did he once whine o crib.. I ll use this platform to express my gratitude to him. "Thank You Ronak"...

It All comes Down To This...

I never knew it would be this difficult. I have been through what most people call "A Lot" but still i neva broke down o felt as empty as today.

Finally the bus arrived. He hopeped into it. But his bag under his seat(a habbit we all Indians have coz v jus refuse to trust another), and came out to catch up on whateva lil time we had. We had spent two whole days but it seemed less. As a matter of fact we had two whole years and it still feels less. We both had ran out of words. Words felt so insignificant, moments so short,time to had turned his back on us. But still we stood there hand in hand to only to make the most of the time we had with eachother. He said he ll be back soon. I nodded. Soon always had thissoothing effect on me. It gave me hope, a reason. The bus conductor instructed him to step in. He obidiently did so. It ripped my heart as his hand slowly left mine. He went back to his seat. I waited there determined to leave only once his bus gains momentum. We only stared but for the first time our hearts did the talikn. Our tears witnessed our love and our ability to smile through it all asssured us our committment. The bus didnt budge so finally i lost patience n walked in. He jumped of his seat like it was the first time we were meeting in years. We both held hands n stood there in silence. We had so much to say and so less time. Ironic na. when we had al the time in the world we had absolutely nothin to say. I didnt wanna leave him. I felt that if i jus continued to hold him like this mayb, u knw jus maybe he would wait back. But i knw i demanded a lil too much. I am jus happy abt the time we spent toather. Evey fight now seems irrelevant, every taunt has no mean today. Only the words of love and affection resonate as in the darkness of the nite i take your name..

I knw it ll be dificult for the both of us. But for me it means much more. No distance can take my love away from me. You are a part of me. Through all my success we ll rejoice togather. In all my failures u ll be my strength.

Kanna, Nan Unai Kadalikerain...