P.S. I Love You..

This ones for you kanna.

I sit on my couch watching tv. Its a regular afternoon. I turn away from the tv to see u smiling down on me. I move a lil closer and tears fill my eyes. Its hard to say why?? I jus snuggle up next to u. I see ur arms slowly move to hold me. You do what u always do when i am in your arms, brush my hair from my face and just look in to my eyes. I can see announce of love for me and my lips part into a smile. How ironic i feel happiness and pain all at the same time.? An emotion so beautiful. One which i had never experienced before. I closed my eyes just so i could capture the moment, so that it never passed us by.

Almost 5 minutes later i looked around u werent there. You had left. You promised to stay. You promised you ll be there with me. You promised you wont leave me alone. You knew how afraid i was to face this world alone. It was only an illusion. But when was an illusion ever so strong. I swear i could feel your hands around me. I swear i heard you whisper softly "Sue, I love you. I really do". I knew waking up would not have been a good idea. Every room i went i could feel your presence and hurt me to even think that it would be long before i could be in your loving arms again. December was so far away.

I got your messsage last night. It was beautiful. It actually made me feel like u standing right in front of me and saying those words to me. Honey i miss you loads. And maybe life would have been way too perfect ifyou were around me all the time. Maybe i would never know just how much i loved you or how much i wanna be with you. no one is more important to me in this world. And there are several times i have let you down. But you have always taken me for who i am. Never once asked me to change or fret by my wierd n absurd self. You accepted me in totality. Thats why I love You so much. No one ever tried knowing who i am. No one was ever a friend to me. No one nurtured or cared for me like you did. For a million reasons, I say I love You honey..

You are millions away. In a country which has nothing in common to our India ;). I keep looking at those roads we ave tread together. The places we have raided. Each day was so much fun with you Anush. I miss them. Now each day is only a moment i am forced to breath. You gave me a reason to live. I knew life as it was only after i met you kanna. Wont thank you coz i m goin to be for ever indebted to you..

Please forgive for all the times i ve done you wrong. Please forgive me for the each moment I have hurt you. Please forgive me for letting you down. Please forgive me to break your trust more than once. I love you jaanu and i am going to make an attempt to be the perfect person in your life just the way you in mine...

Tapi..