No this isnt the begining of a fairytale. Neither is this one of those rantings which will have a happy ending. Cause how can any seperation be happy. for better or for worse today for once i am going to be selfish when i say i wish he didnt have to leave.....
I was always told by people with bright orange turbans that i ll have to struggle and wait long before i get something. I guess its times like these i am forced to believe them. Jus when i had all the happiness in the world, God decides to snatch it away frm me in one way o another. I never complained. Silently took it to be my fate. But not today. No its not fair that he has to leave.
I am left with a handful of messages,an inbox filled with mails and whats my most favourite "his memories". He ll be back soon but only to leave. His each mail is like my life line. I hear his voice evryday but can that replace his presence? I guess not. Can i see him appear in front of me, hold me, kiss me. How can i walk into Naturals n not be reminded of him. How can i walk on the endless winding roads of Jm rd n not recall all the times we spent together?
Why does fate n life have to test me on every step of my life. We console ourselves sayin mayb this is for the better. But let me ask you how can any distance be less painful. How will u justify all the tears? How will u find the better in the pain i go through? How will u explain his absence when i want him the most? How will u make me see the good when I will walk to Dugduseth all by myself, while two yrs all I ve prayed is to be together.?
Distance is all that i ave to live for today. My entire life revolves around 4.30 pm. I am me only then. I come to life.
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