Trip To Realisation......

I have walked through life believing all is Good that nothing or noone could be bad. Maybe thats why i was made to realize.

Not long ago i hurt someone i love the most. Someone who is the most precious to me. I hurt him knowingly n unknwingly but he never made me realise. He only remained with me throughout the process of my trip to realisation like a rock. I told him all that i felt and i can only imagine how much it must have pinched him but he neva made me realise. If i was him he wud have been in for some huge trouble. But no not him. He was more like an Angel, u knw like who allows us to make our mistakes, n catch us whn we fall. Well ya somethin like that.

To begin jus as the distance was gettin to me i realised that mayb i needed somebody to b by my side all the time. I was basically an attn seeking gal. So vulnerable that i cud not make out the good from the worse. So yup like u must ave guessed i was lured to the worse. I spoke to him, confided in him only to realise one day that he was a phoney. Someone who wud go to any length to get the attn n seem like all nice n all. But not once in so many days was he real to me o himself. Things got way out of hand n i didnt knw how to handle them. So i went to my loving Angel. he told me in a very subtle way wht to do n whr i was goin wrong. I wished so much that i had done completely wht he asked me to. I did so put only partially. So then i was bound to fall in trouble again. This time the fool crossed the limits whn to the heights tht wud not be tolerated by any person. But i had lost all patience then n saw exactly what my Angel wanted me to see...

I see it today but its all so late. I realise now but mayb too late. I wish i could go back in time n undo,but its too late.I wish i could ease my lovers pain, but its all too late.....

Someone told me we all learn somethin new each day.. "Today i learnt NOT TO TRUST SOMEONE EASILY",...... Thank u life for teaching me that.. And once again than u Anush - my Angel for catchin me eachtime i fall n for being there for me no matter what......